too depressed now to talk abt world cup. wouldn;t do justice to it.

ME AND MY GODDAMMED FUCKING BIG MOUTH

fuck me man. fuck me.

i didn;t have the right to do that to you; to deny you what you wanted you to believe in. i just was.

angry. and frustrated.

what sort of a man am i?

one that should not have what he wants.

happiness. love. and friends.

extremeties. in a day of diametric, bipolar opposites.

visited my friend;s brother funeral.

for some reason, though i’m nto close to her, somehow, for some reason, i felt the wrench. jsut imagine. a close friend of yours suddenly die. he wont be arnd any longer. the emptiness, the loss.

it’s like loving and not to be loved.

I fire

bang.

world cup 2002 3rd – 4th placing.

the end was captivating. somewhat.

the korean fans unfurled the Turkish flag; the Turks ran around the field, reciprocating the action, waving the Korean flag. and how apt, that it would be the capt of the turkish team, hakan sukur himself, to lead both teams, arm in arm, to thank the supporters?

the epitome. of sportsmanship. of grace, of how soccer can truly unite the world together.

idealistic? leave me to my devices for a while. while i can still be optimistic.

CAP reunion.

was. fun. and exhausting. and i got burnt again.

plah

personally, i never felt so helpless. mired in this utter, total piece of shit which my heart demands i stick to, and not to waver. i do not want to waver, but it is discouraging. i shall continue, and be hurt as it happened in the past. to compound to this: my friend had a familiy problem that;s so surreal it;s unbelievable. i dont want to believe in it either, but it’s the damned, bloody truth.

so much in one night. i can’t stand it anymore.

so much for the turid conclusion of block tests.

you know what. i screwed up again.

yayy

so much in an hour. so much.

tears.

because i thought this picture was pretty, laura of mewing.net told me this: “you enjoy sitcoms, popcorn, horses, and perhaps surfboarding. you lost your virginity either very early (under the age of eleven) or very late (over the age of thirty). you take politics and religion very seriously, and when you were a kid, you had a penchant for getting lost in shopping malls and/or amusement parks. your favorite color is most likely blue or green, and you are terrified of spiders.”

whatever will laura tell you??

take the butt quiz.

and go to mewing.net. why not visit the site of someone who made a quiz about butts?